Diary 222: Return of Diary and Updates

Well, it has a long time since I posted something. I came back today mainly because megavideo.com and megaupload.com were banned by US feds, creating a panic among other video host websites, leading to no free TV episodes anymore. I realized that a significant portion of my day was spent on watching TV series and all. I guess, now it is going to change after all. Over the last few weeks, a lot of things have happened - mostly bad. 

I will start by saying that I scored only 60 %le in VA in CAT and hence didn't get calls from any IIMs other than IIM K stage I. I know that I will not clear stage II. Also, ISB has not invited me yet for an interview and it seems that it will not as the deadline is quite near. To add to my frustration, there are apparently no projects on the job front and so I am totally out of work, and time is not being utilized properly. Although Gil has asked us to get our UK Visas done, I don't see any project in the pipeline. My parents are kind of frustrated that I am not able to get into a B-School yet. My mom is worried about my marriage age and all. I still couldn't tell my parents that Rishabh is getting married. Presently, I am totally alone and I have no friends at all. I am perfectly alone and it feels bad because I have to face all the worries alone. Janani seems to be going through the same phase of her life, and so we talk or message sometimes. I am losing hair at an alarming rate and I fear that my bad looks would soon be accentuated by baldness.

On other front, more recently, I have tried to keep a positive approach towards life and promised to change myself for the better. I am planning to join guitar classes, so that I can get more social interaction rather than sitting idle and watching sitcoms all day. Also, once I get the rejection letter from ISB, I will go on full throttle towards my MBA goal. I plan to approach a education consultant to help me with my applications. Also, I will join TIME full time and try to bell the CAT. I am keeping hopes up by trying to understand myself. I came to know that my personality type is INTJ, which indicates that I am quite rare and intelligent, and that I should be proud to be one. I am trying to overcome my weaknesses with the help of that and also further my strengths rather than wasting time. Also, it seems that Akshay is also leaving Feasthunt and so it is all me now, but I am not distracted and will continue to move on. I reviewed the software on a preliminary basis and it was quite good. Website is also looking much better and unique than before. I am using this link to understand myself in a better way and move towards success. Let's see where it all leads.

Diary 209: Office and Dev anand no more Day

Yesterday I slept at around 2:00 am. Before going to bed, I came to know that Dev Anand, the evergreen star is no more. Today I woke up at around 7:00 am, and got ready for office. I left home at around 7:30 am, and reached the office at around 9:40 am. I was the first one to reach, and hence I had to open the office door. I started watching the latest episodes before everyone arrived and we started working on the EMI project. Well, I was at my best today and was able to understand everything in the code. It felt nice, and everyone else seemed a bit out of touch. Well, I made the changes very quickly and even helped Ankit and Mukund in the other internal project. Working on the schema analyzer, my concepts regarding XML have certainly improved a lot. Anyways, I left for home at around 5:20 pm. In between, lots of design suggestions were mailed by the developer and I gave prompt feedback on them. Later, I came back home and worked on the schema analyzer for a while. I sent an updated output file to Gil, and he replied. I found out that there are still some issues with it, but later realized that the input files are messy too. Anyways, I had some maggi after a long time and left for gym. Today was cardio day. My weight seems to have stagnated close to 76. Anyways, I am not worried about it now. I feel better now. I came back, had some post work out dinner after the bath. Then, I worked on the code again, and wrote this diary. Now, I plan to watch a movie and then sleep by 2:00 am.

Diary 193: Office and tiring Day

Yesterday I slept at around 2:45 am. Today I woke up at around 7:30 am, and got ready for office. Dad's office car was late today and so we left at around 9:20 am. I reached the office at around 11:20 am. I had no apparent work, but I went to office only to follow the policy of alternate day work thing. This is not an official policy, but I developed this to keep things happy at both office and home. Anyways, I started watching the match and came to know that Sachin missed the 100th 100 by 24 runs. But, anyhow, India defeated WI in the first test and were 1-0 up in the series. After that, it was more or less a time pass thing in Office. I managed to get the salary slips from Sushma, and also the salary for the present month. Later, I also got the celebration chocolates from her as a token of Diwali gift for every employee. Later, I left the office at around 5:15 pm, and reached Dad's office at around 6:15 pm. Then, we left for home and finally reached home at around 8:00 pm. Tomorrow, our relatives are coming in from West bengal, and they are coming here for the first time, so it will be fun. Then, I ate my pre work out dinner and watched the TV. Today, another one from Bihar won 1 crore ruppees. I left for gym at around 9:25 pm. Today was workout day. I came back at around 10:30, had my bath followed by the post work out dinner. Then, I came to know that an asteroid passed very close to Earth yesterday, and that it could have hit the Earth. It was not a very big deal though, since it was expected to burn out even if it would have entered Earth's atmosphere. Then, I wrote this diary and now I plan to think about the essays and sleep by 3:00 am.

Diary 165: Early Office Day 2

Yesterday I slept at around 1:00 am. Today I woke up at 6:30 am. I was very late already but somehow I managed to get ready and leave by 7:00 am. I reached the station on time and boarded the right train. I reached office quite early, at around 8:40 am, but there was no one there. Finally, Ankit arrived at around 9:40 am. I worked on the essays a bit, and then roamed around. I realized that Zomato's office is at the same floor as ours. Anyways, we started working on whatever came through. My brain was not working at all, and my productivity was at all time low. I was asking stupid questions and all. I decided that I will leave early today too. I wrote a few mails here and there, and then finally left the office at around 3:45 pm. I reached home at around 5:50 pm. I went online, and decided to watch the latest episodes of HIMYM, TAHM and Gossip Girl. Before that, I played the guitar for a while. Later, I watched the TV episodes and then was ready to go to the gym. Today was Lakshmi Puja, and hence my parents invited a few guests to serve the prasad. I also ate the same as my pre work out dinner. Today was workout day. My weight is still touching 80, and now has officially stopped reducing. Anyways, I returned home, and took a bath. Then, I wrote this diary. Now, I plan to complete the TV episodes and then sleep by 2:00 am or so. Also, I forgot to mention yesterday that Jagjit Singh is no more. He died yesterday of brain hemorrhage and his voice will be missed.

Diary 164: Early Office Day

Yesterday I slept at around 2:00 am. Today I woke up at around 6:00 am. I got ready for office and left home after breakfast at around 6:35 am. I reached the station on time and then boarded the train for Andheri. I reached the office at around 8:30 am, only to find the door locked. I waited for Ankit to come, but during that time, I started thinking about the essays. Then, Ankit arrived and the work started. As usual, very less productive work was going on in Office. Ankit seemed lost, and most of us were more worried about the PF that was cut from our salary for the last few months. Anyways, I somehow managed to pass through the office and then decided to leave early at around 4:00 pm. Luckily I managed to catch the trains right on time at both Andheri and Wadala stations. I reached home at around 5:45 pm. I went online, and checked out the solutions to the Bad AIMCAT that I had yesterday. I realized that I made a lot of mistakes in the LA section of the section II. I was surprised to see so many mistakes and hence realized the reason for so many negatives. Anyways, I also found that two of the questions were wrongly evaluated, and hopefully my marks would increase by 8. Although it doesn't matter much, but still it gives me some confidence. Later, I watched the latest episode of the Dexter, and then ate my pre work out dinner. I moved to gym at 9:30 pm, and returned at around 10:30 pm. Today, I saw some new treadmills in the gym. Anyways, I had a bath, and my post work out dinner. Now, I plan to complete the episode and then sleep by 1:00 am.

Diary 159: Durga Puja day 5 and Steve Jobs dies day

Diary 76: Mumbai Blasts Day

Yesterday I slept at around 3:30 am. I recorded the song "Jodi tor daak shune" using SLR last night. Today I woke up at 10:30 am. I went online on my work mail and other mails. I realized that there was no new work on the previous problem front. So, then I decided to touch the JAVA book again. I started with the Day 12 of the book today. After sometime, I reverted back to watching videos and all. Also, I started uploading the video of "Jodi tor dak shune" on YouTube. I took around 4 hours to upload it. Anyways, meanwhile I was just browsing random stuff on the net. I had lunch. After that, I was again watching YouTube videos. This went on till the late afternoon, after which I decided to watch TV. I watched the Guiness book of world records show and Just for Gags show. It was a relief from the monotonous internet stuff. My laughter was suddenly broken by a phone call from my Uncle in Hyderabad. He said that there have been three bomb blasts in Mumbai - Dadar, Zaveri Nagar and Opera House. I was shocked to hear that. I immediately called up Dad and asked him about his location. He had already crossed Vashi, so he was no where near those places. The impact of the news was so much that I even got a call from Shiny, who is my childhood friend and lives in the building right in front of me, although right now she is in Hyderabad for her MBA. Anyways, after all this, I saw that I got a pretty negative comment on my video from Alok. He said that the best thing about it was the video quality. I was hurt, but I took it as a good point, and replied back that - "Yup, after all it is Canon SLR". Well, after that I turned my focus to the blasts. It was frustrating to see how the terrorists were successful again. Then, we had our dinner. After the dinner, I and my sister had a long discussion about general topics. I explained the relationship issues between India and Pakistan also. Then I told her that she should study properly and gain knowledge so that she can be on the right side of the crowd. Then, she left, but I was still in that mode. I already knew that I am wasting my life with all this YouTube and Social Networking. I need some inspiration in life. Recent events have been a drawback, but I didn't want to be a loser anymore. I want to be great again, an expert. I looked up YouTube for inspirational videos. The search returned a lot of them, and after watching them I even shed a few tears. That made me feel light, and inspired. I wanted to test the theory, so I took the bengali newspaper in my hand and started reading. I realized I couldn't read few words in between, but I decided to continue and not stop trying. To my surprise, I was able to decipher those complex words on my own by reading further and trying again and again. I got my answer. I must not stop. That is the only way. I must continue on the path. Fear will try to bring you back, but you should continue. I use these words often but never implement it. But, I guess now the time has come to implement it. Only then I can find salvation. Next, I plan to browse the internet somewhat, and then go to sleep by 2:00 am.

Diary 4: Osama Bin Laden dead? Really ? I am not that sure about it.

Yesterday I slept at around 2:30 am, and today I woke up at around 10:15 am, to attend a conference call with Gil and Ankit. I had already told Gil that I will attend the call from home as I was too tired from yesterday's heavy work. Anyways, the call was just a half an hour call and ended at 11:00 am. In the call, we were assigned some new work which was pretty much simple and straightforward. After the call ended, Ankit told me that we will meet in office. I said that I will leave in a while, after starting the work. Somehow, I got stuck in the starting itself due to faulty schema definition files. I figured out the main problem and told Gil about it. He advised that I make a new project for now, and we can deal with the version problem later. So, I started working on the new project and was on full flow, so I decided that I will continue working from home and not waste any time. Time was flying by and soon it was 2 pm. Ankit had already reached office by 1 pm, but the internet connection at office was giving some problems. Sushma was also online today, since she was back from her one week holiday. Anyways, before Ankit could say anything I told him that I ran into an issue with some files, and hence had to clarify them with Gil, and since I didn't want to waste 2 hours, I stayed back. He understood the point, and afterwards took the updates from me regarding the new task. I had already divided the work between us, again assigning him the lesser portion of the pie (since I want to reap the maximum benefits of the task). I had a quick lunch at around 2:45 pm, and again started working. I completed my part of the new task around 4:30 pm, but then Gil came along with some other task, which unfortunately I had to do, since Ankit had not yet finished his part. So, I again started working. Meanwhile, I also started watching the ongoing IPL match between Mumbai Indians and Punjab online. I was eager to watch this, because it had Sachin Tendulkar. Mumbai was the first to bat, and started off slow, losing the wicket of David Jacobs in the first few overs. But then, Sachin and Rayadu introduced some stability and accelerated the run flow. The commentators today were criticizing Sachin because he was playing slowly, but in my opinion he played very nicely, understanding the slowness of the wicket, and also understanding the importance of his presence on the crease. He also regained the Orange Cap, and made a 45 ball fifty. Mumbai lost few wickets in the middle, but managed to get to 159 their 20 overs, which many people said is not enough as the wicket was good for batting conditions. I had my doubts regarding that. Anyways, somehow multi tasking between work and IPL, I saw the second half right through. Punjab didn't start well, they lost Gilchrist early, and Valthathy was on an all time low, with strike rates nearing 30-40. Punjab was also finding it difficult to make runs, and lost wickets in the middle overs. In the end, Mumbai won by 23 runs, and won back the first position from Rajashthan Royals with 12 points from their 8 games. Meanwhile, Ankit was facing some problems integrating my code with his, and so he sent it over to me to verify, and few manipulations, I was successful in doing that. So, I sent it over to both Gil and Ankit at around 7:15 pm. I was now free, finally, with all action items closed. So, I went to the drawing room and started watching the news. Well, today there was a huge announcement made at an international level by the president of US - Barrack Obama. At 8:30 am IST, he announced that Osama Bin Laden has been killed at Abbottabad, a place in Pakistan, some 50-60 kilometers north of Islamabad. Everyone reacted - the international press, the world political leaders, Pakistan government, Indian government, Indian media, Pakistan media. Most of them focused mainly on two points - Credibility of Pakistan on issues of Terrorism and Praise of US president in capturing the "most deadly" terrorist of the present times. When I saw the news, I was practically laughing at the ignorance and US biased nature of discussion. Very few, I mean, limited to numbers which can be counted by a kid studying in nursery, were actually asking the right questions - Where is the proof that Osama Bin Laden is dead ? Nobody saw any video or photograph. Why was his body buried at sea ? (may be to conceal evidence of DNA etc). Why this happened just in time, when Obama's popularity was on the decline, and was on his way to run for president for the second time?. Well, I need not tell myself why. I pity on those who cannot understand the real motive. People still think Osama Bin laden was the 9/11 mastermind, without asking any questions. This is not just the 10 years from 9/11 to today, the disease has been here for a much longer duration, more than anyone can imagine now. Good luck to the citizens of United States, but they have fooled yet again. Well apart from all this, tonight my mother said that she is tired of cooking. Hence, we ordered food from outside - veg noodles, veg machurian, chicken fried rice and chicken in barbeque sauce. I liked every item other than veg manchurian. Well, I was not much interested in the second match which was being played today between Delhi and Kochi. The epitome is that Delhi performed badly yet again and Kochi were fabulous. I returned to my room, to check my mails etc at around 10:30 pm. I also had a small chat with Gil, who fixed 9:30 am as tomorrow's call timing. I was fine with it, and I informed Ankit also. Then, started writing this post, and now I plan to watch two episodes of CSI:Miami, before I sleep at around 2 am.