Diary 77: Tiny Realization day

Yesterday I slept at around 3:30 am. I had a voice chat with Mahak then, who was working on SQL Workbench. Also, she liked my cover version of the song. Here is the link. Anyways, I decided that I will not share any of my songs or videos from now on. I was not getting any response anyways, so it didn't matter. I decided to focus on other things. This was the reason that I watched a lot of inspirational videos on YouTube last night. Well, now I am going to follow a few principles very sharply - Never Give up and Keep trying, Don't fear people and failure, and always remember that success has different definition for everyone. Anyways, Today I woke up at around 10:30 am. I went online, and was ready to work. Although Ankit had already informed that the problem was tried again and again by Mukund and Sarvesh, I decided to give it a try. I didn't know many things about the concept that they had used, but I didn't stop. I was distracted at times, but tried my level best to return to the problem. After lots of tries, I gave it up temporarily. I realized that there is a technical limitation to it, but I was ready to face to it again, and will do after writing this post. On the other front, today I played games on Facebook too. There also I followed the same principle. It took me sometime to learn the new game, but I got the hang of it, I beat the highest score. It was an insignificant win, but still helped me keep my faith. Rest of the things went on fine. Normal lunch, and all. During the late afternoon, I decided to watch the TV. There I saw how doctors were able to separate Siamese twins who shared a liver and a nerve fiber which connected their hearts. Also, I saw a documentary on Chimpanzees as Pets. It showed how the chimpanzees who were raised by humans finally turned on the humans themselves, and had to be either relocated or killed. It was sad but true. After that we had soup with bread. Then, I returned to my room and wrote this diary. Although I wrote it quite early today, but the content is good enough. Next, I plan to research more on the problem, and then try my best to fix this. I will try to sleep early today at around 12.

Diary 76: Mumbai Blasts Day

Yesterday I slept at around 3:30 am. I recorded the song "Jodi tor daak shune" using SLR last night. Today I woke up at 10:30 am. I went online on my work mail and other mails. I realized that there was no new work on the previous problem front. So, then I decided to touch the JAVA book again. I started with the Day 12 of the book today. After sometime, I reverted back to watching videos and all. Also, I started uploading the video of "Jodi tor dak shune" on YouTube. I took around 4 hours to upload it. Anyways, meanwhile I was just browsing random stuff on the net. I had lunch. After that, I was again watching YouTube videos. This went on till the late afternoon, after which I decided to watch TV. I watched the Guiness book of world records show and Just for Gags show. It was a relief from the monotonous internet stuff. My laughter was suddenly broken by a phone call from my Uncle in Hyderabad. He said that there have been three bomb blasts in Mumbai - Dadar, Zaveri Nagar and Opera House. I was shocked to hear that. I immediately called up Dad and asked him about his location. He had already crossed Vashi, so he was no where near those places. The impact of the news was so much that I even got a call from Shiny, who is my childhood friend and lives in the building right in front of me, although right now she is in Hyderabad for her MBA. Anyways, after all this, I saw that I got a pretty negative comment on my video from Alok. He said that the best thing about it was the video quality. I was hurt, but I took it as a good point, and replied back that - "Yup, after all it is Canon SLR". Well, after that I turned my focus to the blasts. It was frustrating to see how the terrorists were successful again. Then, we had our dinner. After the dinner, I and my sister had a long discussion about general topics. I explained the relationship issues between India and Pakistan also. Then I told her that she should study properly and gain knowledge so that she can be on the right side of the crowd. Then, she left, but I was still in that mode. I already knew that I am wasting my life with all this YouTube and Social Networking. I need some inspiration in life. Recent events have been a drawback, but I didn't want to be a loser anymore. I want to be great again, an expert. I looked up YouTube for inspirational videos. The search returned a lot of them, and after watching them I even shed a few tears. That made me feel light, and inspired. I wanted to test the theory, so I took the bengali newspaper in my hand and started reading. I realized I couldn't read few words in between, but I decided to continue and not stop trying. To my surprise, I was able to decipher those complex words on my own by reading further and trying again and again. I got my answer. I must not stop. That is the only way. I must continue on the path. Fear will try to bring you back, but you should continue. I use these words often but never implement it. But, I guess now the time has come to implement it. Only then I can find salvation. Next, I plan to browse the internet somewhat, and then go to sleep by 2:00 am.

Diary 75: Some more work Day

Yesterday I slept at around 3:30 am. I was mainly figuring out the chords of the song "Saiyyan". Although some places were grey, I managed to figure them out more or less. I may even post them here on blog, so that I can refer to them, whenever I need them. Anyways, Today I woke up at around 10:00 am. We were supposed to have a call at 10:30 am to discuss the strategies, but I don't know what happened. Suddenly, Mukund and Sarvesh were kind of reluctant to a call, and instead wanted to chat. Now, I had no issues, but in my mind thought that a call is obviously better. Anyways, finally we had to set up a webex meeting because Sarvesh and Rohit didn't have skype installed on their machines. I didn't understand the need for more than one, because they were all supposed to be together. I guess, they were not together, that's why  they were so reluctant at the first place. The call went on for about 30-45 minutes. We discussed various possibilities, and then finally arrived at one. We needed to do a POC(Proof of Concept) for that. So, Ankit asked me to handle the DT part of the project. It was a modification but still needed some effort. So, there I was. I opened DT after a long time. It didn't took me long to figure out what needed to be done. But, I found out that I wouldn't be able to make it to the lunch at Bistro Grill, because it would take some time to make the changes. So, I informed Akshay about it. Then, I continued working on that, and finally completed it at around 2:30 pm. I passed on my part to others, and asked them to continue. After that, we had lunch. I and my sister started talking, and she was telling me about her seat partner throughout the afternoon. She had tuition at around 5 pm, so she left then. I was feeling very lethargic, and so decided to sleep. I woke up at around 7:30 pm. I was still kind of sleepy but managed to keep myself awake. I looked into the solution that they have built, but couldn't understand the reason. Anyways, I will wait till tomorrow, and ask them. After that, I started practicing music. I was supposed to make the video for "Saiyaan" today. I realized that I was not able to sing properly with the guitar, and later realized that the acoustic guitar is better for this song. Then my attention turned towards another song - "Jodi Tor daak shune keu". It was a classic song, and I have always wanted to cover it. So, I started working on this. Finally, after some re-takes I was satisfied with the performance. The video was HD, so will take a lot of time to upload. I decided to upload it tomorrow, because my Dad would obviously switch off the router pretty soon. Also, I was not able to open this blog, because of bandwidth issues. Anyways, after all this, I started writing this blog. Next, I plan to watch few more random videos and sleep by 2:30 am.

Diary 74: Some work Day

Yesterday I slept at around 1:30 am. But, bed bugs were bugging me all night through. Also, before sleeping I started an event on Facebook. I created an event named : "No Facebook for a week". Akshay thought that we can make it big with this event, but I was not interested in that. I just wanted to do it, so that I can concentrate on other things. Anyways, Today I woke up at around 10:00 am. I went online on the work mail, and found out that no one is online. After that, I brushed my teeth, and ate my breakfast. I realized that I should at least announce my come back to the work, so I pinged Mukund and Sarvesh. I also got to know about the status of one of the problems that Gil sent us. We all had a rigorous chat session in which we discuss possible solutions for the problem. Sarvesh and Mukund were too aggressive. I guess the lack of the UDT (Unstructured Data Transformation) project experience was hindering their thought. Anyways, they proposed a tons of solution but Gil kept turning them down. I also proposed some, but they were not feasible because half of the work has already been done, and the client was not ready to make big changes. So, we have a lot of constraints. Anyways, Gil has asked us to try out few solutions and approaches by replicating the scenario at our side. Let's see what do we come up with. After all this, I relaxed a bit, and played the guitar. I even tried to adjust the action of my guitar, but didn't go much further with that since I didn't want to screw things up. So, then I turned towards some training material (Advanced Power center). I found that they were quite complex and required lab exercises to fully grasp. But apparently, the server is not set up yet. So, I had no choice but to go through the slides. Then, during the late afternoon, I took a break, and just relaxed. I started watching coke studio videos. Then, I ordered McDonalds for me and my sister. After that, I started watching TV. The Discovery channel showed some interesting factory processes - Ballon, Car wheel, Envelope. After that I moved back to my room, and started watching YouTube videos. Then, I had dinner, and simultaneously started watching some other shows  on TV. Later, I started helping my sister to clear up her doubts. That ended badly. I lost my temper, and we started fighting like we did earlier. Anyways, pretty soon I got a call from Ankit, and we all dispersed. I explained the whole scenario with the problem and the solutions to Ankit. We have scheduled a call next morning to discuss the issue, so that will shed more light into the solution. After that, I reverted back to YouTube and Google Plus. I realized that now, I have equal number of friends on Facebook and Google Plus. But overall, I started hating the whole social networking thing. Then, I started writing this post, and next, I plan to sleep by 2:30 am.

Diary 73: Boring and Lazy Day

Yesterday I slept at around 4:30 am. I was mainly browsing the net, and doing infinite time pass. Anyways, Today I woke up at around 11:20 am. I brushed my teeth, and had some breakfast. I started watching YouTube videos again. Today, Dave Days released his new video. It was a cover song. I didn't like it much. At around 1:30 pm, I went to the kharghar center to pick up my sister from tuition. She didn't do well in her maths and chemistry tests. It was expected because she didn't prepare much. Anyways, after coming back, I sat with her, and explained the solutions to her. She was sad obviously but I tried to tell her that mistakes are fine, but the more important thing is to learn from them. After that, we had lunch. After lunch, I moved to my room and started browsing the net again. During the late afternoon, Alok invited me to a Hangout. I, Alok and his brother played the guitar together there. Although there was a time delay but we enjoyed listening and playing. After that, I moved to the drawing room to have some Tea. I also started watching the movie - "Hero No.1". I watched it after a long time. I realized that I miss such an entertaining movie. Anyways, the movie ended and I moved back to my room. After going through more random videos, I started writing this post. Next, I plan to have dinner and then go to sleep by 12:00 am.