Well, yes, life does change. Reading some old blog posts from my other blog and watching some old videos, I realized that I have become a diffident slave to the most universal master, i.e. Time. Well, literally speaking, I have joined the TIME classes and the journey is too nascent to be of any significance right now. The "Feasthunt" project is moving at a snail's pace and has now become more a burden than an achievement. On the job front, lack of projects have given me ample time to match up with many of the TV episodes. Although, the recent training and labs have transcended me to another level of maturity in handling our main software, Informatica, the setback in securing a seat in ISB has humbled me below par. Apparently, the most striking achievement of them all is my weight reduction (14 kilograms).
The journey I started with this blog has not ended yet, and may not end ever. After all it is the journey of "being myself". How can I ever stop being me ? It has just changed its course.
Recently, I read somewhere that the person whom you can fool the most is "yourself". These words struck me immediately. Not because I have learnt something new, but because I suddenly realized the reason for my recent failures - I have been fooling myself. I have been trying to mold myself into someone who would like to get accepted somewhere. I forgot the basics and focused on the shallow dynamics. Depth is the key, the deeper, the better. Clarity is the elixir, the clearer, the better. Time is the alibi to some astonishingly simple questions of life. The only struggle is to find them in the archives of our experiences. Those who fight this struggle, win, and those who don't, struggle.
Now, at this point of time, I am already in the middle of that struggle - a new beginning, powered by the golden archives of my life, when basics were focal points and dynamics seemed natural. As I am moving on, I am slowly realizing what were the things that were lost in the middle. Now, I just need to go back, fetch them, and continue being myself.
