Life has been very tough for me somehow for the last 3 years. I have made innumerable mistakes and have done irreparable damage to people's lives, be it family or others. But despite all the anger that I show towards you, please understand one thing that - "if there is one person whom I love the most and whom I fear losing the most, it is YOU and DAD". You guys are my guiding light in this dark world. You might think that I have changed a lot during past times and that now I don't respect you and Dad, but it is not at all true. I am only realizing the value of sacrifices and time that you have dedicated towards me. If not for you guys, I wouldn't have been able to reach where I am and accomplish anything close to what I have.
You are right. I am scared, and I have stopped focusing on my own life. But, I hope you understand my situation. Even if you don't, it is OK. I have disappointed you a lot in recent times, and I hope someday I can make you proud again. I feel that my leaving the house would in fact help you all to be what you were before. Don't worry about me, I am just suffering for the sins I have committed in this life.
