Yesterday I slept at around 3:30 am. I recorded the song "Jodi tor daak shune" using SLR last night. Today I woke up at 10:30 am. I went online on my work mail and other mails. I realized that there was no new work on the previous problem front. So, then I decided to touch the JAVA book again. I started with the Day 12 of the book today. After sometime, I reverted back to watching videos and all. Also, I started uploading the video of "Jodi tor dak shune" on YouTube. I took around 4 hours to upload it. Anyways, meanwhile I was just browsing random stuff on the net. I had lunch. After that, I was again watching YouTube videos. This went on till the late afternoon, after which I decided to watch TV. I watched the Guiness book of world records show and Just for Gags show. It was a relief from the monotonous internet stuff. My laughter was suddenly broken by a phone call from my Uncle in Hyderabad. He said that there have been three bomb blasts in Mumbai - Dadar, Zaveri Nagar and Opera House. I was shocked to hear that. I immediately called up Dad and asked him about his location. He had already crossed Vashi, so he was no where near those places. The impact of the news was so much that I even got a call from Shiny, who is my childhood friend and lives in the building right in front of me, although right now she is in Hyderabad for her MBA. Anyways, after all this, I saw that I got a pretty negative comment on my video from Alok. He said that the best thing about it was the video quality. I was hurt, but I took it as a good point, and replied back that - "Yup, after all it is Canon SLR". Well, after that I turned my focus to the blasts. It was frustrating to see how the terrorists were successful again. Then, we had our dinner. After the dinner, I and my sister had a long discussion about general topics. I explained the relationship issues between India and Pakistan also. Then I told her that she should study properly and gain knowledge so that she can be on the right side of the crowd. Then, she left, but I was still in that mode. I already knew that I am wasting my life with all this YouTube and Social Networking. I need some inspiration in life. Recent events have been a drawback, but I didn't want to be a loser anymore. I want to be great again, an expert. I looked up YouTube for inspirational videos. The search returned a lot of them, and after watching them I even shed a few tears. That made me feel light, and inspired. I wanted to test the theory, so I took the bengali newspaper in my hand and started reading. I realized I couldn't read few words in between, but I decided to continue and not stop trying. To my surprise, I was able to decipher those complex words on my own by reading further and trying again and again. I got my answer. I must not stop. That is the only way. I must continue on the path. Fear will try to bring you back, but you should continue. I use these words often but never implement it. But, I guess now the time has come to implement it. Only then I can find salvation. Next, I plan to browse the internet somewhat, and then go to sleep by 2:00 am.
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